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Congrats on VP <3

a more personal view into my resignation: stepping down is probably one of the best things i've done for my mental health. i burdened myself by putting a lot of work onto my shoulders and having the mindset that i had to get things done and go the extra mile to push SG to something greater. this burden was largely created by myself and myself alone - it's not like i was forced to do it by other directors. when i first was promoted to the board i had a large part in votes and had a general knowledge about what was going on around all the teams, servers, and games. over time as the new forums development stalled i got curious about it and dove head-first into it, and after that i never really left that hole. there was a time where i felt an urge to help JB get back to where it was a few years ago, but having burnt out so much from CS:GO i wasn't of much use there as i imagined. with my head in the forums (especially with my background being in cs) i painted myself into a corner mentally. obviously, i was free to do other board-related tasks as i pleased since directors don't have specific duties assigned (we moreso fill as needed), but i had the mindset of "besides some help from TMs + gator, only you have the time and knowledge to do this", and so i dedicated myself to the forums and anything technical. SG has lacked tech talent for the past few years and i wanted to help get technical things out the door. with my dad having cancer for nearly a year before passing away late last fall, the new forums were a welcome escape into the familiar world of web development while still helping SG. as time went on and requests started coming in for new tech things, i still viewed myself as one of the few people in the community who could help, and so mentally i "assigned" myself to these tasks. again, i understand no one asked me to do it, but from my pov if i didn't do it, who would? and with every passing day i felt that burden increase and increase until my interest in SG started burning out. i started largely associating SG with work, and that's where SG crossed the line from a "fun hobby" to "work". coincidentally, at this time i started venturing into other games (squad, valorant) and had a lot of fun there. i'm the type of guy to stick to a game and get really good at it, and being able to switch from CS:GO into other games was exhilirating. i had just joined a competitive team in squad and was up for promotion as staff at another squad community -- i could feel this was where i wanted to spend the majority of my free time, even though i ended up passing on the promotion to staff. the key question i was asked was something along the lines of "would you be willing to maintain the code you've wrote?" and my gut feeling was "no". if i can't even bother to maintain my own code, i knew that i could not be bothered to write new code or contribute anything further at that point. and so, after a few weeks of mulling it over and discussing with a few people at SG, i decided to step down. that artificial burden was lifted from my shoulders and i felt like i could breathe again. and a few months after my resignation, i feel like i can freely come back to SG as i please without any responsibilities or obligations . it's nice and refreshing to be able to partake in something freely that you've spent over a thousand hours growing and helping. i went from the kid who zoned out in lectures to debate why T-baiting shouldn't be allowed on TTT to putting work at more of a center stage and hopping on SG whenever it crossed my mind. being a director has truly made me more mature and understand my limits. how are things now? good. i'm in my last semester, nearly halfway through, and midterms are starting soon. i'm trying a lot of new food but gaining weight as a result so i have to go back to intermittent fasting ):. people from SG still reach out from time to time and i still snap some of the board members to keep in touch. will i ever volunteer to be a staff member at SG again? honestly, it's hard to say. i still feel dismayed that even with so much work poured in, our community's new endeavours (squad, rust) have had significantly less progress than i had envisioned in the long run. nate and silent are killing it with introducing PMC and trying to get the community signed up for CCFN. overall, i think SG is maturing slowly with the flow of new CS:GO players joining the community slowing and existing community members growing up. a foray into a new game needs some really passionate people to push it, otherwise it sits there. i've seen that passion in the squad server managers and hope that it spreads to other servers as well (not to say that the passion isn't there with other servers, i genuinely have largely no idea what's going on with CS:GO and haven't for the past 6 months). i also think that with the community maturing slowly, new players who explore SG will have more motivation to stick around as opposed to being weirded out by inside jokes being spread on the discord and chatbox. thanks for reading this ramble (:

Today I woke up in a cold sweat, terrified. I instantly jumped out of my bed and checked the forums. Tunnel visioned - I went to 20 scrolls' profile. He was still a Community Advisor. Having just patched up my wall from the previous incursion into this individuals profile I was upset knowing what would happen in the coming seconds. My fist was going near the speed of sound from my perspective. My unbelievable amount of rage balled up in my right hand, honestly, it was scary. 1 second to impact, I was trembling. Finally, after what was forever to me, my fist met drywall. To me I absolutely shattered the newly patched up wall, the house was shaking from the amount of force being put into the structure. I could hear my parents yelling at me as I was recovering from the blow that was just dealt to the wall. Little did I realize that my fist never pierced the already weakened drywall, in fact - the punch nearly broke every bone in my right arm. My parents in reality were yelling to me asking if I was okay or not. We rushed to the hospital. I am now recovering in this comfortable hospital bed eating jello and watching George Lopez. You win this time 20 scrolls, next time you'll wish you were so lucky.

@Benzenestepped down today. I am sad.

I still think about that last competitive match we played together a few days before you passed. I don't think I've laughed that hard since then. And I don't think anyone I've ever known has made me laugh that hard over and over again in every conversation I've had with them. I tell all my real life friends about how the funniest person I've ever known is a guy I met on a gaming community when I was 12, who made me laugh for years and years but also gave me copious amounts of advice. Always gonna remember you, can't possibly think of me 12 years old - 17 years old without doing so. Love you homie.

Im free bitches

Just relaxed on the patio w my cat n dog while grilling steak. good night so far

me and the family at outback steakhouse! #scumgang

whats next dommy? tango?

Goodbye everyone, My pubes are getting way too long and curly, taking a few months off to trim the bushes. I hope to return to SG soon.

I got banned for 24 hours because I RDM'd che like 5 times in a row cuz he was getting on my nerves. obviously my actions weren't justified, but it was kinda funny and it's not like i crashed the server or anything so in my eyes it's water under the bridge. my punishment is completely fair and I won't go this far with a random person ever again. what's way worse than me getting banned is the follow up, because around 10 minutes before I was eventually kicked, as a joke some of the admins in the game upon learning I was getting banned extended the map so I could play for a bit longer. it's now been brought to my attention that these staff members are being tried for helping me ban evade and may be facing strikes or even demotions. I think this is ridiculous and I feel obligated to apologize to any of my friends or staff members who were caught in the crossfire. in private, I offered to extend my ban to a month in exchange for these players not getting repercussion, but it was denied. i'm truly sorry for egging anybody on to extend or encouraging ban evading as it's not my intention to spit in the face of authority of a community I care about.

not everything is about you steven

went through the trouble to bot his profile views lmao

still banned you fucking idiot

Today the great apes of SG @Noob^@kabLe@idealist returned. 2020 suddenly look up.

hey man where you been?

ay on foenem mane these nimrods done deleted my admin app? are yall fr? bringing down a real one? wait till i make my own ttt server on cs2 and i overtake yall gon be crying at my doorstep

Literally a wholesome meme got hidden I'm pressed

xmas donut rawrXDXD

ratio

happy birthday dude

Happy birthday buddy

had to cary doolo cause he is a noob.

Hey, it's me. I just wanna let you know I had a really good time tonight. You was smelling good, looking good. You got my attention for real. I don't wanna let you think that you got it. I know you got guys and all that, but I like you, and I wanna see some more of you.

dresdin.

Greggy G

editing this dumbass one liner out

Putting my close friend, @John, on suicide watch today. If the stocks do not go back up in the next 10 days I fear we may suffer more than one casualty. @Noob^ is also getting added to the watch list, SAD DAY!

leftists be like "cl_righthand 0"